Poetry by David Ames

Inspired By the Book 1984

If these walls could talk, They'd say
"Set me free from this bleeding inside"
The pulsing vein in my head pumps, Continuously
Stealing a glance, Concealed in a dream
Constantly wanting, Somehow, Someone to scream . . . .
Break the walls that confine me to myself
Chronic pain endures my body
Break the walls down, Tear through the mind
Progress
          (Emptiness protects the mind from discovery)
Protest
          (Protesting kills off what is left of me)
Condition
          (The slums of earth become my home)
Progress
          (Progression only leads to being alone)
If this mouth could speak, Free from bondage
"Let Me Go!" it'd say with a forceful disturbance
Concentration equals nothing less than is deserved
If the past did exist, Why wasn't it preserved
Stealing a glance, Concealed in a dream
Constantly waiting for someone to scream

A Glimpse to the Abyss

This night is cold as it tosses and rolls
Across minds of the lost and forgotten
Although I feel sane and this pain in my chest keeps on kicking
I think I'm slippin'
I think I'm slippin' away

If I said that I was wrong
Would you come back home?
And leave the night to itself
If I screamed out a lie
Even just to get by
Would you lose all your faith in me?

Guess this is how it feels when you've lost everything

This day is warm yet I feel I'm alone
And my hands have had loss of blood
But the voice in my head says just do it again
In the end, Nothing else matters
Nothing will matter

If I said that I was wrong
Would you come back home?
And leave the night to itself
If I screamed out a lie
Even just to get by
Would you lose all your faith in me?

Guess this is how it feels when you've lost everything

Yet Im running, Yet Im falling, Yet Im pushing, Yet Im calling
Trying to break down these walls I've built around myself

If I said that I was wrong
Would you come back home?
And leave the night to itself
If I screamed out a lie
Even just to get by
Would you lose all your faith in me?

Guess this is how it feels when you've lost everything

Fabric Of My Name

Velvet in the way that I had barely known your name
Now we're rolling through the sheets below the pillows where we lay
And if the love I feel could be conceived in notions by the sane
Then the answers would reveal the very fabric of my name

I Am

I am drowned
By the thoughts of a thousand good men
Left by the bed to be bled
Bleeding my heart out but no one seems to hear
I am felt
By the hands of a thousand good women
Reeling from what has been said
Screaming my lungs out but no one seems to hear
I am blind
By the lights of those who were dead
Whose souls have been left in my head
Yelling out loud but no one notices me
I am crushed
By the weight of the clouds in the sky
Raining on me through those eyes
Crying at night, Thank God no one can hear

Unrestricted

(This song was written for a friend of mine who went to Kosovo and when he came home, the people who once loved him, treated him like nothing)
Why didn’t I read through the lines
I could’ve found a way to forgive all the lies
Now the cross that I bear can withstand no more wear
And the trials of those seem to break through my head
All the struggles and shouting heightened by my doubting
And now…

Grace the walls with this substance that brings just a
Thimble full of good intention
“Welcome Back” you say, you never loved me quite as much as
When I was away, Disgrace you labeled me

The feeling I’m the only one left
Relates to the fact that the unit was left dead
Now family and friends take from me like I’m dead
And the ones who are close seem to take the most
I feel used, I feel drained, I feel lost, I feel shamed

Grace the walls with this substance that brings just a
Thimble full of good intention
“Welcome Back” you say, you never loved me quite as much as
When I was away, Disgrace you labeled me
And now while I dwell in my doubt
I am torn at the seems by this family, You never loved me
You never loved me